Hi, My name is Kevin McDermott. I’m a firm believer in JESUS CHRIST LORD AND SAVIOUR and am seriously mentally ill. I’m diagnosed bipolar and schizophrenia. Here’s my story.
About 22 years ago before I was diagnosed with SMI, I left home to embark on a journey that would forever change my life. I had no money and only had the clothes on my back. I wanted to find my way to eternal life. Anyway on my walk I came upon a drainage tunnel which sits outside of Lincoln village apartments. I could walk through it but I had to hunch my back to do it, I walked about a mile and there was an adjoining drainage tunnel that I came to.
My mind was racing and I thought of the movie Shawshank redemption where the main character (Andy) had crawled through a sewage of crap and came clean on the other side. I thought I could crawl to THE LORD through this tunnel, which was only about 3 feet in diameter. I was in the best shape of my life at that time, I worked out 4 times a week so there I went. I crawled approximately 3 miles and the whole time I could see a light at the end of it. I thought it was heaven so I kept going till my whole body gave out. There was no going back. I was going to die right then and there in that tunnel. No one would have ever found me or known what happened to me.
I screamed out in a blood curdling shrill, MY GOD, WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME!!!!!!
Then at that point I believe a spirit was put into me and I slithered and snaked my way all the way back. People, you have to understand and believe that how I got back is humanly impossible. THE LORD says with men things are impossible, but with GOD all things are possible. I couldn’t have done it on my own. Can’t be done. Anyway I made it back to the larger tunnel, all my clothes were shredded off of me and I was stark naked. By this time it was late at night and I was extremely exhausted and was bloody from head to toe, I had ripped off a lot of my skin. I was scared and couldn’t walk my way back through the bigger tunnel. I asked the LORD to help me get out. I looked up and there was an iron drain over my head and I jumped up, touched it, and it was thrown off to the side for me to get out.
I laid in the grass for at least an hour to try to regain some strength to try to walk home. I was about 3 miles from home and I was naked. What was I going to do? I looked and there was a very small plastic covering so I could barely cover my privates. I walked through several neighborhoods until I suspected someone had called the police on me. A patrol car picked me up thereafter.
I was transported to the stress center unit at Columbus regional hospital in Columbus Indiana for a stay of two weeks. They put me on some very high potency medications to stabilize me. I didn’t go voluntarily by the way. They patched me up at the hospital and I take psych meds twice a day. I believe in involuntary treatment. I was a danger to myself and to those around me. I take my meds daily because I’m afraid of what I might do if I don’t. The LORD is real and my story is a true miracle. I wasn’t getting out of that tunnel alive without him.
Thank you all and GOD BLESS.
