Delight in Disorder: The story of one pastor’s battle with bipolar disorder


This spiritual memoir is a house of meditations where faith and mental illness co-exist, at times fueling each other to dangerous distortion, at times feeding each other to fruitful gain. It offers hope for those often neglected and shunned. It also fosters compassion for believers towards those with troubled minds.

Paperback – February 26, 2014



 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ Prayerful Read
By Kitt O’Malley and Nick Nicholson May 11, 2015
I found myself reading this slowly chapter by chapter night after night as in prayer. Each psalm and autobiographical passage spoke to me directly. Now I realize again how important my faith is to me. Thank you, Tony Roberts, for sharing these psalms and what they meant to you as you grappled with bipolar disorder. As someone who lives with bipolar disorder and has struggled to discern my own calling, I am deeply touched.

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ Black Dog Speaks Review of Delight in Disorder
By Maggie on July 16, 2014
Recently I have had the pleasure of connecting with a captivating man named Tony Roberts through my blog. Tony Roberts is a pastor, and is diagnosed with bipolar disorder. He has compiled his experiences as a man of faith, a leader within the church dealing with the highs and the lows of bipolar disorder through daily devotions in his book Delight in Disorder. As a fellow Christian (I’m actually a Catholic but recognize that the inherent morals and goodness of other faiths or religions can bring people to God), it was inspiring to see the depth of his devotion and the strength that he has been able to derive from his relationship with God – at a time when many give up on Him. Whether you currently have a faith or not though I think that this book has the ability to shed so much light on something that is so hard for many of us to grasp. Mental illness and disorders are not the same for everyone, their treatment is not the same so it becomes very hard to understand. Tony Roberts writes in an attainable style about his experiences and those of the people that he has met along his journey. He has helped to de-stigmatize mental illness and disorders through this book. I found it extremely interesting.

Tony does not beat around the bush with his book Delight in Disorder. He gets right to the point and is very candid about what he has experienced. Nothing is spared, not even his darkest or most vulnerable moments which is in my opinion what makes this book so real, so powerful. I would recommend this book. I would recommend it to those dealing with mental illness or disorders, the people who care for them, their friends and family. But I would also recommend it to people who are not affected by mental illness or disorder. As a society or as people in general we tend to judge or fear what we do not understand. As mentioned before this is an area that many of us cannot wrap our heads around even if we know someone who is dealing with the complications that go along with it. This is a great book to help demystify the sickness of the mind and help us accept people who are dealing with it.

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ An important read for anyone suffering from mental illness
By Michaelon March 13, 2014
There are no easy answers to serious mental health issues like Bipolar, and Tony pulls no punches in laying out rather a daunting landscape for us here. I found the book insightful on many levels, totally frank and not for the faint-hearted. First of all it’s a valuable read for anyone suffering from Bipolar disorder, and shows how, alongside medication and professional counseling, nurturing a religious perspective can be crucial in maintaining a kind of balance when all else has failed.

Tony shows us how a personal relationship with God can be brought to bear on one’s sufferings and how, through that faith, whilst we still suffer, we can be granted a different perspective on our sufferings.Through one’s struggles with mental illness, faith in the Divine can all too easily be shaken, but as Tony shows here, by maintaining a sincere and searching dialogue with God, faith can also be strengthened, and life’s delights still enjoyed even in the teeth of psychological storms.

I think Tony’s insights will also help anyone in the position of caring for a loved one suffering from mental illness.
From the carers’ point of view people with mental illness often adopt characteristics that make them appear neglectful of the feelings of others, and as such can be very difficult to love. It’s then hard to know how best to approach, for fear one’s loving persistence will be interpreted as just another of the sufferer’s problems. Reading this book, carers will perhaps have a better idea of how provide comfort and security, without making things worse by useless admonitions for the sufferer to simply “pull themselves together.

The language here shows a strong Christian heritage, virtue of Tony’s background as a Pastor, but non-Christians will find it a valuable read too. Where mental illness is concerned whatever helps – even a little – is always just the thing you’re looking for.
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⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ A Crucial Book About Mental Illness And Faith – You Won’t Want to Put it Down!
By Amazon Customer on March 20, 2014
As soon as I read this book, I saw hope, I saw light, and I was uplifted.

In each portion of this book, we are guided gently and reverently through a passage of encouragement and enlightenment, as Tony draws from his own life experiences as an individual who lives with bipolar disorder, but also as a man of God. He leads us on a journey through Psalms that continually draw attention back to the center where His foundation lies, and that is on Christ, which he makes evident throughout this book.

I was hugely encouraged and uplifted by reading this book, not just as someone that has a similar disorder myself, but as a Christian. God opened my eyes through Tony’s words, again and again, bringing me the belief that there is truly a delight despite disorder, and in it itself hope is found. Even if you do not live with a mental illness, this book is so full of wisdom and insight that I would highly recommend it to anyone seeking to deepen their relationship with the Lord.

Tony touches on many things in this book that are so relatable to so many people; I don’t believe someone could read this and walk away untouched. I am thankful for his willingness to write these words as he felt led, and I will definitely be reading this book again!
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⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ Excellent Reflections on Surviving BiPolar Disorder
By John Dobbson June 26, 2014
Having interacted with Tony Roberts for quite a while online through blogs and Facebook, I was very interested to read his new book Delight in Disorder: Ministry, Madness, Mission. In his journey in dealing with being bipolar, Tony has written a starkly honest portrayal of both the realities of mental illness and the strength of God’s power to walk with us through our darkest days. Through the language of the Psalms one discovers truths about God that will bless everyone.

If you are someone who struggles with manic-depressive problems or you know someone who does – this will be a great read for you. I believe it would behoove every Christian to read this book because it affirms what we all need to know – when troubles come, where shall we turn? I think it would bless someone who is not a Christian to understand how faith can be a source of help and hope when dark days arrive.

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